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Journey to the Soul, stories and thank you.

It’s been quite some time since I’ve published something on this blog. I can finally say proudly that I have finished what I’ve been working on for the past year! My first album, Journey to the Soul is completed. Not only is it completed at all but I’m able to release it on my birthday of all days! This album means so much to me as it stands as a testament that I can do anything I put my heart towards. I worked incredibly hard this past year learning how to produce music and this is the result of that effort. For my first album, I have created a subaquatic paradise with Journey to the Soul, an ambient-atmospheric electronic synthesis, in which you’re able to explore as deep as the ocean goes, meeting dozens of creatures on your descent to the bottom. Journey to the Soul transports you to another world with each of its 12 tracks, a world where at the center of everything is love. Gain a deeper understanding and sense of compassion for yourself and the world as you make your way through this ethereal world alien to you.
Music means so much to me, alongside writing, which is why I have written stories to go along with each track, narrating your journey into the ocean. Each of these tracks is meant to help guide you visually throughout your entire experience, which is best experienced through headphones or decent speakers. I’ve also included 2 bonus tracks of demos I’ve been working on recently in the Bandcamp release that won’t be on the CD. With all that being said, I really hope you enjoy this album!

Journey to the Soul is available for streaming/downloading on Bandcamp. Album is pay what you want!
If you would like a CD, please contact me on Instagram (morialive)!

It’s always been love, hasn’t it?

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Navigating the world in front of us has become more complex than ever as we attempt to make sense of all the violence and chaos surrounding us. There are countless things wrong with the world that have laid some sort of dissociative veil over our eyes as those in power continue to make those of us that aren’t as fortunate into numbers that can be depleted. I feel like I am experiencing my life second-hand while someone else has the reigns. In times like today, how does one continue to go on? How can someone continue to live and attempt to make something of their life when the world is figuratively and literally on fire? There is only one everlasting thing that will continue to fuel human’s need to persist: love.

Goodbye, Alima.

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This is a short story I wrote that exists within one of the universes I’ve made for my original characters. It doesn’t have any direct ties to the main story of the universe I’m referencing, but I wanted to mention that anyways. It’s somewhat graphic so if things involving gore make you uncomfortable, I suggest you not read this post of mine. Also, today I coded a website for the main series that’s based in the universe this story is and if you would like to check that out you can by clicking here. There is a locked portion on that site that took an unbelievable amount of time to learn how to code because I have the same amount of knowledge of coding as an infant does. I’m really proud of being able to make that site exactly how I wanted it. Thank you for reading and checking out that website if you do, enjoy!

Get to know me a year later!

04/07/2023 Mori

A little over a year ago, I created a blog post that detailed what I believed to describe me as a person. Since then, a lot has changed with how I view myself through my own eyes and others and I would like to update my introduction post. If you would like to read the original introduction post you can access it here.

Nice to meet you! This is my blog where I like to pour my deepest darkest thoughts and hope it touches another life. This blog has helped me grow into the person I am today and I’m very proud of myself for starting it. I wanted to open my introduction by talking about my blog because if you really want to get a grip on who I am as a person, reading my blog is a surefire way to do that. I am proud of every word written on this site and hold each of them very close, so reading through them will help you get a better understanding of the writer.

Loved as I was, as I am, as I will be.

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Countless times I have found myself picking apart everything about myself. There is probably no aspect of my being that is free from my judgmental thoughts. I analyze how my relationships with others progress, romantic or platonic, and I find myself endlessly changing. No matter what, I can’t believe the idea that there might be nothing wrong with me. The concept of being enough as I am is not something that computes with my understanding of the world. Up until this point in my life, I have taught myself that things are the way that they are because of something having to do with me. Let’s say a friend and I have a falling out; regardless of what circumstances led to the following out, I am going to understand that the blame lands on me even though it doesn’t. It’s hard to describe these thoughts but they aren’t thoughts that I am a bad friend or a bad person, but rather that I am not worthy of being considered on the same level of existence as others. If I had to put it into words, I believe that if something goes wrong then there is some cosmic force influenced by my aura that caused that thing to happen. While I know none of this is genuinely true and I don’t believe it to that extent, it still has an impact on how I view myself and navigate through my relationships and life.

Happy Anniversary and New Year!

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This month marks the first anniversary of this blog! Throughout 2022 I experienced a wide variety of things, good and bad, and looking back I’m glad I got to experience all that I did. Everything that’s happened has changed me at my core and I believe it was for the better. I made a lot of friends, I lost some of those friends, I made new connections, and I lost some old connections. When I started this blog, I was in an extremely dark place and I wasn’t sure if there was a way out. I’m currently dealing with a lot regarding my mental health, but I’m doing much better than I was when I began this blog. I think I might’ve talked about this previously, but while my old posts are extremely depressing, I don’t want to delete them. No matter how much I don’t want it to be true, all the negative thoughts that are in my head are part of me and are not to be swept under the rug. Coming face to face with everything I’ve experienced is part of life and the only way to continue growing into a better person.

Home is where I am

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I’ve never felt any connection to one location. Each one of my “homes” has simply been a place where I laid my head to rest. The idea that you can enter some building and are overcome with a feeling of relief as you’re welcomed into your own home is something completely unfamiliar to me. I know this issue partially the stems from my difficulties facing my home life as a child, causing me to feel as though I’m only existing where I am temporarily. I have never settled down in the slightest or put my roots anywhere. I believe this is the reason why I am so distant from everyone in my life. To be constantly waiting for the time limit on my friendships to be up has robbed me of so many beautiful relationships with others. After writing it out, it definitely sounds like anyone with common sense would understand that that’s not how life and relationships work, which is true but we need to consider my mindset and all the experiences that have made it. Why would I chase after a connection with people who are only temporarily in my life? My relationships with others isn’t the main topic of this post though; I wanted to touch back on something I’ve previously discussed briefly in this post, which is what home means to me.

Becoming a Better Person to Myself

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One of the things I’ve been meaning to get around to lately is cleaning up the posts that I currently have published on my blog. A lot of them contain countless literary and grammatical errors among other issues, but as I was going through and correctly my previous mistakes, I noticed something. I have already grown so much since I started this blog. I still feel a lot of the same things I’ve talked about in my older posts, but I’ve learned to deal with them in a more healthy way. In one post in particular, I went on a tangent about how I feel as though I lack creativity and intelligence, which is in no way true, though I could work on raising both skills. I’m not quite sure if skills is the correct word to use in that situation, but I’m not sure what word to put in its place. Regardless, if you live your life, putting down every single thing you do every day, then you are going to despise yourself. You have to show love and patience to yourself; the person that you should love the most is yourself. I think for a lot of people this concept of putting yourself before others has been ruined, because people have insisted that this way of thinking is selfish. I don’t believe that it’s selfish whatsoever though. You are the most important person in your life, that’s a fact. If you continue to put others in front of yourself, forgetting to even consider your needs and wants then you are riding backseat in your own life. No one can experience your life but you and hating yourself for everything that you do will rob you of every wonderful experience that you could have.

It’s Getting Colder

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As summer comes to an end and the violently hot sweat filled days make room for the increasingly bearable days that come with fall, I find myself looking back on this year with a smile on my face. While I can’t stop the feeling of dread that also goes hand-in-hand with winter from creeping up on me, I feel confident that the way that I spent this year was more or less the exact way that I was meant to spend it. I’ve tried to live more true to myself than I ever have this year and it has opened so many doors and allowed me to experience so many things I did not even believe possible last year. Moving out of my cousin’s house and into an apartment with a girl I had just met before our move-in date was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Since I started writing this post a lot has changed dealing with the chemistry of the relationships between my friends and me, but that doesn’t take away from the fact that this year was one of my best. Living true to what I believe is my wants and needs is the only important thing to me. As it gets colder, I begin to reflect on all the interactions I’ve had with others, what lines of communication I should cut out of my daily routine, what behaviors I should adopt, what things I would have done differently had I known what would come, and so forth. I’ve grown to become a better version of myself by the day and I feel as though I need to show respect to my body by thanking it for making it to this point. More than anyone in your life, your own body and soul deserve the most love and patience.

Living a Life alongside Others

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This weekend I had one of the most amazing experiences of my entire life. This might seem somewhat of an over-exaggeration, but I can assure you that it is not. I had the luck of experiencing a beautiful Ecco2k and Bladee concert this weekend and it genuinely changed my life. It honestly is not something I can easily put into words but I want to try so that I can share this experience with whoever reads this. The main lesson I taught myself throughout experiencing this weekend is that the best way to live my life is by living true to myself. I often ignore parts of myself and things that make me happy so that I’m more aligned with others. That does nothing for me but keep me from doing things that would help me love the life that I am living, and this is the only life that I have the only thing I can do is love it. Coming to understanding this took a long time, but the concert this weekend thrust me into a full understanding of this concept. If the concert were to work out in any way that wasn’t exactly the way that it ended up working out, I’m not sure I would be coming to the same conclusion about my life as I have. I had to be alone and feel the crushing feeling of what that is like before I could experience true bliss so that I could understand this concept fully.